6th grade suitor

VJ, Widznur's girlfriend, is my classmate and a friend of mine. We were classmates during our 3rd and 6th grade.

Widznur and I became friends because I was teasing them both (Veronica and him). January had come and a few months more, we will be graduating. Between these dates, he gave me letter containing his feelings for me (I kept it but it got burned together with our house). During that time, we were practicing a musical play at the back of our classroom. I had no idea what's happening so I let my classmates read the letter. I just ignored it and eventually ignored him as he pass by our classroom going to his classroom(next to ours). I confronted VJ about it and she said they're relationship had end. My best friend, Sitti, told me to give Widznur a chance but i'm not making up my mind. The graduation is very close and I have to double work to make my mama proud( I ended up being the 2nd in our batch). After graduation, we don't have communication anymore.

One year had pass, Widznur's showing up never came into my mind. His friends went to our classroom and called for me. They said Widznur wants to see me. Luckily for me, I don't have my shoes with me so I just peeped on the door and said, "done. he had seen me already". There was a trembling sound in my heart. I was nervous then. I don't want to see him. I'm afraid of him(because during those days, being in a relationship is a big "NO-NO" for I am too young for that). I ask my classmates if they have gone and assured that they're not just around somewhere. I thought it was just a visit but I figured out, he was now studying there.

On my third year in high school, we met again. This time, he had courage to talk to me. It was during our camp at Ecozone. He saw me all alone and got near me. He ask for my number and I gave it. He ask for my friends' numbers, too. He made friends with them and ask for help(Accdg. to Ranya). He courted me again but I'm confused. Dodong too is courting me. Days pass and i'm bothered by my conscience. Dodong stopped courting me and I ask Widznur if it will be OK if we will just remain as friends. I told him I am not ready yet for any relationship. He said it's fine yet it hurts.

We continue our friendship and communication. Close friends(who knows this story) kept teasing me to him(especially Haydee). He still says that he loves me but I don't think he's gonna court me again. Not now that I already have a boyfriend.