my NOT CRUSH turned into my ULTIMATE CRUSH

Reynen is cute, smart, silent but he's not my crush and he's not my type.
i already knew him since i was in forth grade during our free tutor in ADZU.
my classmates were totally into him.



he's everybody's crush so when they (my friends) ask whom i like, i told them him (Reynen).
it was hot afternoon and we were staying outside our classroom waiting for it be opened.
chitchats everywhere.
like what other teens would usually do, we nicknamed our "crush-es" so that no one would know it.
during my 1st year in high school, Jerome called me 'Judy Abott' so they nicknamed Reynen as my 'Daddy Long Legs' because of his height.


i thought that issue will remain secret but no secrets are safe.
they oftentimes tease me with him so i eventually get into him.
but that was just nothing. 
my crush in him is just for the sake of "i do have crush so i'm normal".
i remembered it was after third year that my feelings are growing.
i think of him, i secretly stare at him.
i love his eyes and the way he smiles.


he is not sociable then during those first three years in high school but, when we reached our last year, he bloomed.
i feel odd with his immediate change.
and i feel odd when goes near me especially when Je-an told him that i've got a crush on him.
that thing is so shameful.
so i said, "it was just during second year. not now"
i have to lie for them to not tease me but that became worst.


that odd feeling of mine stayed until he had his first girlfriend (i guess) in college,
with her, i don't feel shy to go near to Reynen even though i still like him.
i love it when he tease me but i hate when he frequently ask me "where's your partner?" .